I started thinking, really?
Well, I found out, maybe its true.
Some friends are richer than I am, some are more talented, some just has that sense of humour
Now I realize, that was the motivation for me to strive to be better, I realized that I must at least try to be better in ways I can control. Therefore, I started to try improve myself. I wasn't the study-then-computer type of person anymore. I started to work out, build a better stamina, go for more sports. I started to focus on my study aims, make sure that I will be the best among my friends. I make sure that I always spare time for friends, help them when they are in need, cause old friends are gold. I also try hard to make new friends and meet more people. I start learning how to control my temper and just accept everything the way it is, I have become happier in some instance. I try to learn new skills so that at least I have something to land on if I fall in the future. I do my best so that at least I will have one thing that I can be proud of when I'm with others, no matter its because I have more friends, a better temper, a better job, a stronger body or just smarter than they are.
But now I've found out, its really not so easy to maintain such many good things in you. I start slacking in college now, dont know whether its because of the environment or the subjects, but I know at least I can have fun with my friends. I stop going for workouts, not sure whether its because of time constraints, or just because im pure lazy. I continue to make friends, but with less enthusiasm, maybe I think that I have enough and is already satisfied with the friends I have now.I've not realized that I started to get tired, started to remain at my current position, started to relax.
Now I realized, theres nothing much to motivate me anymore, I tried but it really seems so hard to get that A+ I always wanted, I tried but it seems so tiring for me to go for a work out, I tried but it seems so hard to make people smile. I tried, but it was all in vain.
